I had my year end appraisal at work yesterday and it got me thinking about bad habits I have and how I can go about changing them into good habits:
1) Not looking people in the eye.
This is my worst habit, but also the one I am most conscious of and work the hardest at. I don’t mean to be rude, but when I talk to someone I face away from them as much as possible. I don’t know why and I can’t really pinpoint when it started, but my mother pointed it out first about 10 years ago now. Apparently it’s very strange having a 1 on 1 conversation with someone who looks disinterested and is staring at a closed curtain! As I progressed through uni and started job applications I made a big push at make sure I look at people. I now only slip out of it once I let my guard down, but I am really trying!
2) Not being “pushy enough”.
Like I said, I had my work appraisal. I was really pleased with all the comments I received (Quick background, I’m a graduate engineer. Diabetes diagnosis stopped my offshore career temporarily so I’m now desk based. I replaced the most senior engineer on a team last year and was really proud of the achievement of picking up his scope and completing the job) and my manager said I should be proud of what I had done, but that he didn’t think I was. I don’t have enough pride in my work (apparently). When I have completed a task I breathe a sigh of relief and move on. I don’t feel the need to make a song and dance about it and shove it in peoples faces to praise me. I also am “too nice” and if someone tells me no I’ll find an alternative. I don’t know yet how to work on these, but ultimately they are what gave me a poor grade for the year (not AWFUL, but not good either) and the fact I did good work doesn’t counteract it. SO clearly some work is needed!
3) Rotating Injection sites “properly”
My doctor complains about this already and I’ve not been diagnosed for a year yet. he wants me to have an official rota on where I do my injections. Get into the good habit early and it will stay with me for life right? Wrong. I’m a girl, sometimes I wear dresses, on those days my thighs are accessible and my stomach is not. So I use my thighs. If I’m in trousers I use my stomach because my thighs are inaccessible. It makes sense! I do sometimes try to do a right side/left side rotation but I forget. I fully understand why this is necessary, but it’s not easy
4) Snacking between meals
In the honeymoon period this has been easy for me. I can have quite large snacks, 15-20g, with no ill effect on my BG. My problem is I know this won’t continue, the honeymoon will end and so I need to knock this on the head now while I can. Easier said than done though sometimes!
5) Being too hard on myself
You had probably guessed this one was coming, based on the fact I even chose this topic. People have often said that about me, but I’ve noticed it a lot more since having diabetes. I keep a close record of all my readings and when things aren’t going right I can over react and blame myself. Sometimes it’s just not our fault, need to accept that more!
This has been an awfully wordy post so here is a cute picture to end on a cheerier note!